The Lovely List of Lovely Things November 11, 2009

Ok this started a week or so ago when my friend Abi posted on her facebook status that nothing beats the loveliness of new socks. I responded new socks are one of the lovelinest things in the lovely list of 26 things that are lovely. At C.U House party last weekend, we decided to write this list with the help of others (the list is longer thatn 26) and since I haven’t blogged for a while I could put them on here.

The Lovely List of Lovely Things in all their Loveliness

1) Fluffy bunnies

2) New Socks

3) Bubble Wrap

4) Running tea leaves/sand through your fingers

5) Jumpers straight out of the tumble dryer

6) Frost/dew on spiders webs

7)Crunchy snow

8) Smell of chocolate/coffee

9) Buying a new notebook with a nice cover

10) Waking up and realising you don’t need to get up

11) Grass after its been raining

12) Waking up to find its been snowing the night before

13) Seeing a rainbow

14) Feeding ducks

15) Hot melted butter on toast

16) Jam roly poly pudding with custard

17) Wake up feeling refreshed

18) Balloons

19) Hot water bottles

20) Finding all your old toys and all the memories with them

21) watching the sunrise

22) Christmas Eve

23) The smell of new books

24) Having a whole sofa to yourself

25) Kittens

26) New shoes

27) Thinking of lovely things for the lovely list

28) Babies skin

29) Friends and family

30) Flowers/recieving flowers

31) The feel of a hand on your cheek

32) Coming into the warmth out of the rain

33) A nice cup of tea

34) Sunset

35) Little ducklings

36) someone you love who loves you back

37) A text from a best friend

38) When someone offers to make you a cup of tea

39) The smell of Autumn/Christmas

40) Smell after the rain

41) Jets on a summer day

42)Fresh cut grass

43) The ocean when its foggy or raining

44) Climbing trees

45) Jacket potatoes

46) Walking through forests

47) Looking at stars

48) Baby guinea pigs

49) Driving by moonlight

50) Smell of old books

51) watching people smile

52) Being told you’re beautiful

53) Cuddling in bed

54) Having your hair stroked

55) Sitting round a fire

56) The cool side of the pillow

57) Someone runs a bath for you

58) Having a day dedicated to watching films

59) Pyjama days

60) A good pint after a hard day

61) A glass of rose

62) Not feeling like you have to wear makeup

63) pretty dresses

64) Hugs

65) Having a shower after a long flight

66) Swishing through leaves

67) Being met at the airport by someone you love

68) Finding something you thought was lost

69) Being given something for free

70) Singing your heart out

71) A child’s smile

72) Having your hair cut

73) Recieving a letter from abroad

74) First intake of air as you step out into a cold winters day

Long time no see! July 5, 2009

Oh dear, seriously need to write on here more often :s
Problem is a lot has happened and it’s really hard to remember every single thing that might be interesting.
I’m finding at the moment my memory is getting worse, not my long term memory, but more my short term, so I now easily forget what happened 5 weeks ago, 5 days and even 5 minutes ago!
Another reason I don’t tend to keep my blog up to date is because I also have a diary, so when I write in my diary I don’t tend to write it again on my blog and vice versa. Also a blog is very public and therefore you can’t put all the thoughts that pass through your head out there into the world wide web, unless you’re a type of person who likes to have everything out in the open.

I tend to be quite a private and quiet person, usually I tend to keep my thoughts and opinions to  myself, unless I’m with someone I really trust and then share what I’m thinking with them. In the past when I was younger and a bit naive, I use to share things with people, who would then spread it around, and at school that was crippling and mortifying. And that did a lot to damage my trust with people and made me to withdraw within myself and feel that I had to be constantly on my guard in case I did or said something that someone might use against me later. I also found it (and still find it to some extent) to approach people as I had a deep fear of rejection and the only way for me to avoid being rejected was to not make contact in the first place.

It’s taken a long time for me to get over my fears, really I’m still going through the process. Recently, my confidence seems to have dipped and have no idea why or what’s causing it, which is annoying to say the least.

I come across situations where I know I’m capable of doing it yet something inside me hesitates and then my confidence goes down the plughole and I then feel like I did when I was 14, when I would avoid the dinner hall at all costs because of the real fear of sitting on my own because I had no friends, because no one wanted to be associated with ‘The Dog’ of the classroom.

On a positive note (because it’s not all doom and gloom, honestly!) my lack of confidence is sometimes temporary, and I have come a long, long way from how  I use to be, and continue to pray to God to help me through all the difficulties I face with his unlimited love and grace.